If you would've yelled out the title to me, I would've surely punched you in the face, but not today because I'm full of positivity this year end. Once again another year has passed swiftly. This year was full of new experiences. My useless IIT journey began. To be honest I wasn't expecting PCM to be so interesting and tiresome at the same time. It surely has some perks of it's own.
Many things happened over the last week itself. We ordered a bed for me but it turned out to still not fix my almost 6' height. Now we gotta replace it once again with 6½ feet one. The results of Regional Maths Olympiad too came in which I got very less marks despite being attempting it very well. I blame the checker for this mishap. I ought to get some more marks. I don't care if they understand my way of presentation. [ Cries and laughs deeply inside] Aahh It was a major disappointment.
The day before yesterday SpaceX finally tested the Reusable Space rocket 🚀program. It's a nice thing and surely a milestone in future human-space interaction. Like this and many other small/big promising things happened this year. Best one of them being news of Earth seeing first ever downfall in CO2 emission since the very beginning of mankind. '😂' was the Oxford Word Of the Year (no matter how lame it may sound but it's true). Indore's getting improved too, whether it being getting cleaned or more cheerful.
Although being this year seems so fullfiled in each aspect I feel empty inside. Every year in the winter season I get to analyse myself *It's the effect of this season* Sometime I'm able to fill my with all those inspirations, hopes, good things that are going to happen with me but many times I fall into endless arms of negativity. I see no bright future of me ahead. I cannot push myself to the levels where there are full chances that I might collapse. Studying to get into an institute which doesn't even has so much respect outside India really makes me think that was stepping for this job was not a wise decision. I'm not blaming the IIT dream over my incompetence but still the truth remains the same. A few days back only I heard a quote about Inida that Once in a million in India means that there are exactly 1241 people more like you. This further added to my dismay. I'm feeling sleepy, I won't be able to write anymore. Adieu...
Many things happened over the last week itself. We ordered a bed for me but it turned out to still not fix my almost 6' height. Now we gotta replace it once again with 6½ feet one. The results of Regional Maths Olympiad too came in which I got very less marks despite being attempting it very well. I blame the checker for this mishap. I ought to get some more marks. I don't care if they understand my way of presentation. [ Cries and laughs deeply inside] Aahh It was a major disappointment.
The day before yesterday SpaceX finally tested the Reusable Space rocket 🚀program. It's a nice thing and surely a milestone in future human-space interaction. Like this and many other small/big promising things happened this year. Best one of them being news of Earth seeing first ever downfall in CO2 emission since the very beginning of mankind. '😂' was the Oxford Word Of the Year (no matter how lame it may sound but it's true). Indore's getting improved too, whether it being getting cleaned or more cheerful.
Although being this year seems so fullfiled in each aspect I feel empty inside. Every year in the winter season I get to analyse myself *It's the effect of this season* Sometime I'm able to fill my with all those inspirations, hopes, good things that are going to happen with me but many times I fall into endless arms of negativity. I see no bright future of me ahead. I cannot push myself to the levels where there are full chances that I might collapse. Studying to get into an institute which doesn't even has so much respect outside India really makes me think that was stepping for this job was not a wise decision. I'm not blaming the IIT dream over my incompetence but still the truth remains the same. A few days back only I heard a quote about Inida that Once in a million in India means that there are exactly 1241 people more like you. This further added to my dismay. I'm feeling sleepy, I won't be able to write anymore. Adieu...
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