Vedant Matta

Please DM me if you know how to write an introduction to a blog post. Well I'm settled now in IIT-I. But missing my family even though they're like just 30 km away.  Med Semester exams are going on and yet I'm writing this post. Whenever I give some serious test/exam I'm always in one of the two kinds of state. First being - "This phase will just get over in 8 days and then I'll be off to home, sleeping/Tv etc etc. While the second being me just kind of getting really into that moment. Enjoying the exam, adding logic to the just plane wrote memory and moreover taking proud of my hard work. Although the second profile was active only a few times like with the 8-10th standard exams and JEE Adv. ( Even though the latter didn't end up well). This pretty much describes my life as well. Only when I'm fully prepared and have certainty of the outcomes I actual live the life at its fullest. And when I'm intimidated by my ill preparedness; fear of outcome...

Writing after a very long time, don't ask me why. Finally schooling is over and it's time for college, but I don't know why I'm more or less perplexed about the college. I'm not at all feeling excited. This blogging thing has turned into a place where I'm active only when I'm feeling down. Finding reasons for such aversion leads me nowhere, maybe its because of parting from family, maybe from exhaustion due to rigorous studies in past 2½ years. Well who know what this phase may turn out to be. Few days back, I 'celebrated' my birthday, huge disappointment once again. This time not even a cake to celebrate. Literally had to go out alone for an Ice Cream and a chocolate tart. ( To overcome next to none response on my birthday from my family) I imagine my future life likewise. Never have I been so doubtful of my future. Each TV show's seasons ( Silicon Valley, Brooklyn 99, Doctor Who, TBBT) which I watch has ended. 😩 Leading to more emptines...

Shadowplay - The Killers

Writing blog after a long time 😪, because nothing surprising happened with an exception of one-two events. I'm completely clueless why I'm writing this post. Nevertheless, I should start. Few days back (actually 2 months ago), I visited Ahmedabad not on a major purpose, ( my father had some work there, and I needed a break from studies), I must say that they suck at food. I ate same local dishes there at their most well-known place, and everytime I think about that I feel like puking, man! disgusting food. I've eaten local dishes in South India & Maharashtra and their food sucked too, but Gujrat set a new low. Enough with it. Ahmedabad is a better city than mine, I must say. IIM is a jewel of architecture in Ahmedabad's city. No wonder it's so hard to get there. City is well planned.  Bingg, I'm out of topic to discuss upon.  Huehuheuehue, I don't want to start that depressing crap of my life. Festivities have started. Ganesh Chaturthi just got past...

If you would've yelled out the title to me, I would've surely punched you in the face, but not today because I'm full of positivity this year end. Once again another year has passed swiftly. This year was full of new experiences. My useless IIT journey began. To be honest I wasn't expecting PCM to be so interesting and tiresome at the same time. It surely has some perks of it's own. Many things happened over the last week itself. We ordered a bed for me but it turned out to still not fix my almost 6' height. Now we gotta replace it once again with 6½ feet one. The results of Regional Maths Olympiad too came in which I got very less marks despite being attempting it very well. I blame the checker for this mishap. I ought to get some more marks. I don't care if they understand my way of presentation. [ Cries and laughs deeply inside] Aahh It was a major disappointment. The day before yesterday SpaceX finally tested the Reusable Space rocket 🚀program. It...

My life is becoming more monotonous day by day. Nothing great happened in past few weeks ( better be months). My birthday is coming in the next to next week. I don't look forward celebrating it, I have to pour almost 6 hours on classes that day and also a 3hr (or maybe more) test the day after that day. Every year I wait for this date and it quietly passes by and nothing happens. That hurts  . Monsoon has arrived. It rains every now then. The rain makes me remember all my good moments I had past in my life and makes me more sad. I was always taught that rain was symbol of despair ( as it was used in many Poems) but I never believed cause it every time made my more cheerful, but now things have changed. I really hate growing older now but that's the cycle of life. You born, grow up & do every useless thing you have to do and die... I'm at loss to find things which I look forward too. Well I found some old pics (2007) on our family cloud storage today while I was organ...